Changes of Life

I am not a small person. I'm overweight and I can say it. Technically I'm obese and apple shaped. That being said, I am rarely cold. When I was young and correctly proportioned (never was thin) I would get cold hands, feel the chill, etc. Goosebumps are a thing of my past.

At this point in my life I am hot. Not Paris Hilton "hot," but meaning very warm temperature. I have a fan at my desk at work and run it almost every day of the year. I have had the ceiling fans going at home for more than a month.... even all night long. Being in the midst of menopause doesn't help... hot flashes are horrible! I don't think you'll find any woman who enjoys them.
I admit that I am looking forward to ending "that time of the month" although mine is pretty easy & uneventful. I don't yearn for a return to the childbearing years.

My boys are almost grown. I like that they can go out after dark to take out the trash or take the dog for a walk, and I don't have to worry that someone will grab a sweet little boy from my yard. They are both on the edge of being men. Scary thought... but so true. I am not looking forward to either one moving out on his own, but I know that time will come sooner than later. I do enjoy the fact that they are old enough to watch some of my tv shows and don't have nightmares afterward. They understand the humor and dramatic license. They are both beginning to own their faith, figuring out how they will fit into God's plan.

Changes are not easy. Choosing whether to be upset or accepting of life change is such a cruicial part of growing up. In my mind I'm still not finished growing or changing. Seems like I read somewhere that when a person is finished growing is the day they die... or something like that. It makes sense to me.

Monday is canceled

I'll let the photo speak for itself.

Birthday Girl

Yep, here it is... my birthday. I'm 44 today!

I wonder why it is that we still feel 20-something-ish in our heads. I know I'm not 20-something. I don't think I'd really want to be 20-something again... although I would change somethings, like how I parented my son when he was a toddler. From that I know that I've grown and changed my attitude about life, love and a lot of things. Forty-ish seems to have made me more reflective of choices and consequences.

Well, off to start the day!

Saturday

It's 12:51pm. I generally love Saturdays. Mike is up early for work and I get to sleep in. Buster snuggles in tight once Mike is gone and we stretch and doze and roll over and sleep some more. I didn't get up until 9:45 this morning! That's practically a record for me!

The boys stayed up late and watched Avatar. Seth said it ended around 1:30 this morning. Oh to be a teenager again. Brand is planning an afternoon movie with Addi and another friend.

I have the crock pot going with a beef roast. I have caught up on current events. I think it's time to start a new book. Yay!!

Short

I'm officially the shortest human in this home. And I'll continue to shrink in stature for a few more years. Fortunately I still have a drill-sargeant voice that can bring them to their knees... at least for a few minutes.

Spring has Sprung and I'm loving it!

It's been weeks since I even visited my own blog... so busy being outside in the wonderful Midwest spring weather. I love daffodils and tulips blooming madly... the irises will be along shortly. I love looking at the trees that were recently completely bare, and now they are leafed out and full of life. The birds are twittering around all around our building. I'm sure nesting season is fast approaching.

I even planted a few flowers this weekend... room for another post!

Counting down

I've been counting weeks, then days, then hours and finally today is the day! My parents are coming to visit. Just checked online and the first leg of their flight is on-time. They should be in St. Louis around 6:45 tonight. We're driving down to meet them and will spend the night.

Today is Mike's birthday - he's 46 and really doesn't want to be reminded of it. We'll go out to dinner tonight and celebrate.

Here's to Spring!